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Came here many years ago when there was no cable car and the roads were mostly gravel roads. The roads are still bumpy and lots of areas which were blocked or with damaged roads, but things have sure improved a lot in this part of the world.
Dear Blog...
Dear blog,
Have not been blogging for a while. So many thing have happened in such a short period of time that everything seems overwhelming.
To sum things up, bought a new house and am busy with renovation woes and stuff every weekend, got a promotion and ended up working even longer hours, got a lot older in a short period of time with many physical woes (current one a toothache that isn't going away and stress induced insomnia).
Got me thinking sometimes, on what the heck i am doing with my life. Everyday struggling to finish up infinite work, a boss that is not appreciative, less contact with my parents, friends missing from touch after covid, health getting from bad to worse, spouse having work problems too. Its like I'm the most successful person to people looking at me, but the biggest failure in reality.
Sometimes I wonder if this is all worth it. A kid with 50c would buy an ice cream and spend everything on it. And the kid would be the happiest person on earth for that moment, although he'd have nothing after that. And here I am with millions of 50c and am nowhere as happy as the kid would ever be.
Got news too that a superior i have is leaving and that he is leaving to follow his dreams, on what he wants to do, albeit being in a senior position.
Perhaps I need to take a step back, and relook at my priorities, worries, pains, troubles and see them in another light. Maybe the toothache is a blessing, to keep me awake when i need to rush things. Maybe i shouldn't over prioritise on working very hard everyday, maybe i should chill and try not to aim to score goals everyday. Maybe its ok to lose some and gain back some life. Or maybe its just a phase, one that would be gone soon. Maybe I should sleep when i am supposed to!!
Anyway, when things get tough, give yourself a pat on the back and tell yourself "you're ok, don't be too hard on yourself". With a bit of luck, it might cheer you a little. 😆
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